| | An Add-on post since I don't want to bother editing the other.
I just read my entries from today to about a year back. It's amazing how optimistic I was, and I'm a critic. I'd have to say I was a lot more entertaining too, not all semi-depressive manic. Well it's because I feel like I don't have control over the parts of my life that I really care about. Which makes sense though I think it was just a false sense of security back then.
I can't say I've completely gotten over something. The more and more I stay away and try to not think about it or forget to think about it, I get stupid nightmares about it. It's irritating. I've come to terms with it and living with it, but in my spare time when I'm just sitting down and not thinking about anything, the past comes back to haunt me and remind me that I could have, should have done everything in my power to make it stay in that place. Maybe in the sense of destiny it wasn't meant to stay that way, but I do care about it enough that I don't think I could completely give up or just suppress it and call it a new day.And seriously, feeling really distant from a couple people lately, not sure if it's because I don't go out of my way to talk regularly or just that I accidentally ditched someone and that person won't get over it And I'm not really that supportive. Damn.
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